Nov 12, 2008 Journal Posting

It's been 8 months since Al passed, and I'm still feeling extreme grief. Sometimes the grief lifts, and I am able to laugh and feel joy. Then I feel guilt, that I'm betraying him for not grieving. But I realize I need to love myself. And loving myself is doing things that bring me joy, peace, happiness and love. Loving myself is not sitting in a corner grieving. It's important to not only love those around me, but myself as well; to find compassion and love for myself. I think those that are on the other side would want us here to continue to live, to feel joy and to laugh. Not sit in a corner and grieve.